Keep on going with your silly dream

 Today, I am 24 years old. My age is not big, but it is enough to make me realize that life is a long journey full of twists and turns. There are fun moments that I want to continue to go through, failures that leave gaping wounds, and regrets that are still clearly imprinted. However, behind all that, there are many valuable lessons that have shaped me into who I am today.

In the past, I thought that at this age, life would be clearer and more structured or at least had reached a stage that I dreamed of. However, in reality, many things are still uncertain, and many questions have not been answered. I am afraid that many things will suddenly disappear and not achieve what I expected. However, slowly, I learned that life is not about how fast—but about how I survive the process.

I have made many mistakes, disappointed myself, and even doubted the path I have taken, or even blamed many things on destiny that happened. However, every time I fall, I always find one unchanging truth: God never really leaves me. In anxiety, there is a calming prayer. In times of trouble, help comes from the most unexpected place. There is Allah who always makes me rise again.

Now I understand that happiness is not only about great achievements, but also about accepting yourself, appreciating the process, and continuing to fight even though the results are not yet visible. I am still far from perfect, and there is still a lot to improve. However, I choose to believe that as long as I continue to move forward with faith and effort, Allah will guide me to the best path.

There are still so many tasks that I have not completed for years, namely about accepting. About an open heart, about difficult istiqomah. However, I only hope that every year I can continue to have silly dreams like when I was a child. Keep trying to fly those dreams in writing.

Alhamdulillah bini'matihi tatimmunush sholihaat. Thank you God for these 24 years—for all the laughter, tears, hopes, and lessons. I don't know what will happen, but I will keep going. With doubt, with hope, with prayer.